Free to be me

We become like a boat at sea, influenced by everything around it, the tide, the winds, the people on board.  Nothing is controlled but everything is moving the boat in various directions.

I remember when I felt lost and in chains.  Everything around me seemed to be someone else’s idea and expectation of me.  I felt I didn’t know which mask was the correct mask any more… and I had plenty of masks to please everyone.  I remember feeling tired and disconnected.

I think we all do this.  Even if we have fought to keep our individuality, we have tried to be something…and it’s tiring.

But something changed and has continued to change for me.  Every day I am given gifts to choose what I believe is important.  Everyday I can relax more into me, instead of trying to prove myself and fight.  Every day I can surrender ideas and concepts that have made a box for me.  Instead, the exploration of who I can be is a constant joy and adventure.

There actually isn’t one me.  That would be boring.  Instead I don’t tell myself I am always like this, or only eating that… because life is an adventure.

The greatest relief is in knowing I can never disappoint, I can never do wrong and by following my heart I continue to bring love and joy instead.